Need you now....

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
To me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Ooo, baby, I need you now

Wanting what you can't have is hard to live with. To have what you have wanted but what someone else did not want is worse, it hurts you. You may try to say it is for "you", you need something that is for you but it will hurt even a tiny bit. It does for me. I want to talk more, I want to listen a lot more. I don't want to be the silly lady. Turned off my phone for the day to not be that silly lady. I just am....just silly. But like the song I will probably call a quarter after one because i need you.

what to say....

My life is pretty much on this blog. To understand how I think you should look at my blog. I have been hurt, I have been happy, and I have just talked too much.

I am lost for words right now.

i don't know when i do something wrong. I worry too much or say sorry way to often. It bugs some people but i do not know how not to say sorry. i am sorry for everything. Things I don't do i am sorry. Things I do but don't understand what makes it wrong i am sorry. I am sorry for being this person. THe person that some seem to hate or get angry at. I want to not be that person but it is not possible.

I guess what i am trying to say..is that me right now is not correct. I don't think I am right for you, but i want to be. I want to be the person for you. What you say is "your 18", and i think it bugs you. I wish I could change it. Change is good. I don't know what you think. I try to get it out of you but it doesn't always work. You make me happy, me glow, and smile. I love spending time with you and i want to spend more time with you but i am being clingy. I know it. You say you can be but you are not. I like PDA, i like being with you, around you. Are we moving to fast? We might be. I want you to share but i don't know how to get it out of you. I am going to share that I am worried I am too much, or not enough.

I feel by even saying this much you think I am crazy. I don't even know if I have enough guts to send this to you right away. So much of my life is on this blog. I am strange. I know. But do you know. Ugh...need to be slow. Sorry for being fast...so fast. Write me back if you want...I am kind of afraid.

Words

Words come easy to some
Difficult to say for others
You pondering over the correct phrase
The right way to organize your words

Words are like poisoin
Slowing killing me inside
I pondering over what you have said
thinking of your words

i just don't understand
yet shouldn't i
words are just a meaning
A way to describe

Words try to describe
they can't describe my feelings
They can not describe my pain
MY hurt

But words are words
Really what are words...
Just a way to not do what you mean
Not show but explain

Words are hard
they can't be what i truly mean
There are no words for what I think
words can not explain the blur i am in

Your words have put me in this blur
I am in this mist of swirling words
Words of words you have said

I wish I could share but there is nothing to be said
My words are all gone
Used or misused