Life, Love, Lost

Life is a complicated thing. None of us know the true meaning of life but we all have are views. My view is lately distorted, from the hearings of others that i can't think myself. I use to think that we are were created from a bang from god but on the other side there is the story of the big bang. I use to think that after death, we would go to pregitory or hevean or hell, but now all i hear is nothing.
Lately i have the feeling that this life is a dream and are dreams are part of the other world. I had a dream awhile ago that all i could remember is "SAVE HER!" I don't remember what this meant, but i think it means i have to save myself. Since this night i have not been sleeping well or in my bed where i had the dream.
I feel confuzed at the moment.
To make it all better i like a guy that i think he knows i like him but he doesn't do anything. So, tommorrow i am going to do the Kassie thing of going up to him and kiss him(even though i know this other girl is hitting on him and i don't know if he like her or me).
It is just that i don't know what to do.

I have been lost lately and i can't find myself - no matter how hard i look.
~Kassandra Kaye Thelen~